Tonight-
Shawna
Make dinner
Finish take home test
Organize other work that needs to be done this weekend.
Put in a seperate binder

Monday-
go to pierce to get transcript
Take back to clover park
Take it to registration desk or whatever
Go to financial aid or advisory I think to see if i don't have to retake that class.

If not- wooohooooooooo!!! The lady in advisory said that I most likely might not have to.

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And her family.
The first day I flew in to LA bc it was cheaper. And that way I can see Gabe and Vilma and they were also coming so that was fun!! I miss them.
Then so it was shawna's mom , younger brother michael (sp?), and older sister kaleen. We. Stayed for 3 days and 4 nights went on friday, leaving on Monday.
We even on annual passes so we can go whenever- we just need to buy tickets to fly there :)!!!
I think you can't truly enjoy the land of Disney unless you go see the shows and what not instead of just going on the rides. But it makes Sense when you have gone alot in your life and you have maybe already seen all that stuff.
But we pretty much went on every single ride that wasn't kiddie and some kiddie ones saw a couple shows- took pictures with some characters (next time, I gotta do it allll even if I have to stand in the dumb line) , ate an arm and a leg omg too much mexican but sooo gooood. Didn't buy anything I am so proud of my self except to purchase my love a token of our stay and trip together.
Omg walking from 8-9am to 1am ish non stop will make your feet fall off but totally worth it. I've only gone there a couple times in my life time .once when I was 11 or 12 and the other when I was a senior for our school band trip. Didn't get to see or do alot so I missed out on alot. So this time was really awesome and was really breathed in.
I forgot or haven't realized how much I love that place.
I can't wait to go back- but in january, we're actually saving up for Disney world. So wooohooooo!!!!!

When's the best time to go?
I thank my love for being in my life, and showing me all the love and tolerance.
The trip had it's times but now I realize that it's bc of this this shit in my vagina.

Pictures!

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Lyrics to Forget About Her :
I Will Love You Everyday... We Have A Good Thang And You Know Its True...
No Matter What Happens I'll Be There For You...

Imma Do Whatever It Takes My Love Forget About The Past And Be You're Only One,
Tell If You're Ready And You Want This To Cuz Im Gonna Make You Forget About Her...
Imma Do Whatever It Takes My Love Forget About The Past And Be You're Only One,
There's Only One Thing That I Know I Gotta Do Im Gonna Make You Forget About Her

When I Met You, You Was Cold As Ice, Would Do Whatever Just To Catch Your Vibe
But I Could See You're Mind Somewhere Else, Or Maybe Thinkinâ Of Somebody Else

Cuz I Know That Maybe She Was All You're World And Maybe You Would Never Trust
Another Girl I Told You Once And Im Sayn It Again Im Gonna Make You Forget About Her

Imma Do Whatever It Takes My Love Forget About The Past And Be You're Only One,
Tell If You're Ready And You Want This To Cuz I'm Gonna Make You Forget About Her...
Imma Do Whatever It Takes My Love Forget About The Past And Be You're Only One,
There's Only One Thing That I Know I Gotta Do Im Gonna Make You Forget About Her

Forget About Those Nights When She Put You Out Up In The Cold,
The Way She Never Respected The Things You'd Given To Her Just Let It Go
Forget About The Way She Broke Your Heart And Told You Lies,
She Had A Good Thang But She Could Realize

I Will Love You Everyday... Make All Your Pain Just Go Away, We Have A Good Thang
And You Know Its True... No Matter What Happens I'll Be There For You...
I Wi'll Love You Everyday... Make All Your Pain Just Go Away... We Have A Good Thang
And You Know Its True... No Matter What Happens I'll Be There For You...

Imma Do Whatever It Takes My Love Forget About The Past And Be You're Only One,
Tell If You're Ready And You Want This To Cuz Im Gonna Make You Forget About Her...
Imma Do Whatever It Takes My Love Forget About The Past And Be You're Only One,
There's Only One Thing That I Know I Gotta Do Im Gonna Make You Forget About Her

Forget About Her
Forget About Her
[ Forget About Her Lyrics on http://www.lyricsmania.com/ ]

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I wish that people that has been owing me money for so long now paid me back. The people that aren't going to that need to.

Bitches.

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Ive never thrown a surprise birthday anything before so it was kind of scary (thinking no one will come_ I always think that) and exciting. Nina helped me mostly and Tanesha was a help also. I'm happy for Those people that showed up- I love yous! It was wierd and cool how it ended up going (the plan making). It made me happy to see shawna's face get all.. Uhhh ahhh!! Or something ha.

The beg of the day I wanted to do so much but I was limited. But we went to starbucks for Internet and I bought us coffee for the day, then decided to take her to northgate to shop a little then to arayas for the din din.

Since she was 21 now I thought it would be fun to go to a bar or whatever to get a free shot bc it was her bday. She got more than that. A free shot from someone and money to buy a shot from someone and random peeople telling her happy bday . It was exciting to see that and funny kinda.

I don't know why I thought it would be different that night that maybe she would want to kinda dance at least go down there.. I shouldve known better. I should have just know that, that's just her. She doesn't dance so she says.
I'm a dancer. I love music- karaoke, dancing..esp with the one you love-- she says I can go ahead and just dance without her...I want to dance with HER. ya I could dance with my friends, but there has been times when everyone is dancing with someone and I'm stuck sitting bc I don't have anyone to dance with. I don't want to just have her sit there while I'm dancing with other people. It makes me sad. I'm tearing up thinking about it and writing this

I don't think she will ever want to. And If we're together for a long time...I have to deal with it. And go out with friends alone...I could find a friend that could go out with me for dancing...but that's stupid and I would want to dance with Shawna instead.
It might just come down to that.
Idk.

Maybe someday she will start dancing with me some how. Idk how many times I've written about this. This will be my last time.
This is where we differ. I wish it wasn't.

I cried at the club a lil before we left...no one saw.

ANYWAYS

I decided we should leave if were just going to sit there. It was also my high school friends bday party at her parents house. Alice and wonderland theme. I just wanted to stop by for a minute and say hi and see the people I haven't seen in forever.

I could tell when something is wrong with Shawna. But she won't talk about it, and I have to find out through here or through a text the next day.

I couldn't sleep bc of it. I cried all night bc of it. I didn't want to cry myself to sleep. I wanted to resolve it or else i can't sleep. I don't like going to bed if were not ok. When we got home, she didn't speak and just went straight to bed. That made me sad. When I see that. I guess it was going to happen some time.

I just found out why she was being the way she was...and It makes me so mad. Just having bad experience after another and me just having to go through it....and bc of the person who caused it- cAused her to be that way And it put a damper in the night.

I'm sorry I kinda had to write out everything. Makes me feel better if I have no one to talk to. That's what a journal is for. To vent. Mind dump.

I knew before we were together. Maybe I just have to deal and live with it. Stop crying and wishing about it.

She lives a different lifestyle than I do.
Maybe I'll just go with my Brother alone tomorrow. And stop trying to get her to do things that's not her. But thats my life, thats how i roll. Is it wrong that I want to share with her it or want her to be a part of it?
Oh well....

Don't get me wrong- I DO UNDERSTAND being scared to dance in public. We were all probly like that at some point. Different lives, equal different outcomes.

I'm going to attempt to make her cheesecake now...

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I forgot to take a jacket, I forgot my fanny pack which contains my wallet= money,I only decided to bring $2 in quarters...good thing not just .75 cents. It's freezing and im going to be late to school by an hour.

But my gurlfriends the best ever.
Love you <3

No doubt

Paramore

And the sounds

Were fuckin awesome dammit

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This fourth was pretty neat! Besides a little part of it.

This was actually a good ffourth- haven't had one in a long time.

We decided to go to ocean shores with allison and her gf. She brought like 4 dogs and we brought Maggie- we left later thaN them so when we got there we had a hard time finding them- that was the sucky part- it was about 10 when we found them I think and we ate and drank and some guy near us became our supplier hahaha. For wood anyway and helped us with moving my car him and his friends - made me think he was Mormon. Or he didn't know we were gay so u know-

Then we took lots of pictures with shawnas professional camera- I'm a good picture taker! But we took alot. We had fun- then we left bc we ran outta wood and the tide was weirdly coming up.

We got home around 2:30am and went to bed
<3333

On the way there

Oh ya and before that I took Maggie to a filed to play

Tegan and Sara was awesome

The end

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The result of playing hard up on the zipline play thing in one of the seattle parks (pinched my skin)

Me jeff and tyeisha ( 3 musk rats)

First day of restaurant management

Sad I don't have pride pictures on my phone but other people do! I gotta steal those!

First we went to her apts to do a walk through on her last day of her living there ( but not really living) she's getting most of her deposit back- wee!

We were late so we were also late to the parade our friends were spread everywhere and I wasn't trying to find them so we stood at our own spot and drank a little ( I bought us our own big thing to drink out of it was cute)
We brought Maggie and ugh it's annoying when u have the cutest puppy ever! Everyone has been going up to us to ask us how old what's her name what is she blah blah. It gets tiring but it's all good.
I got to see Brandi ,ky, rose, & her daughter isha. Taylor and her woman meat, Allison and her woman and her/their new puppy,and alot of shawnas friends.

We stayed until like 4 or 5 ish

Took our first bubble bath together

Ate some and fell asleep naked teehee!

But we woke up and took Maggie for a walk and watched a movie Which we or just me fell asleep bc I always do!

I still woke up early for school- didn't know what to wear and still had to iron them - I forgot I had to get gas but I didn't have time so I just drove to school. I think I signed up for the wrong psych class so I'll have to fix that tomorrow hopefully. Jeff had a diff class but we went to the other one anyways he's such a besty.

We got out real early so me and jeff went to 99 cent Monday at value village to find shoes and clothes. We went to two of them - I found some server shoes and a tank top thing since it's summer. And a couple other things ( one I got for Shawna )

Now I'm at work until close BOOOO

Then pick up the wonderful girlfriend and then hommmmeee.

Tomorrow - no work until sunday!

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I know!!!! My buns are backwards. But those are toasted,
This is a Tofu sausage with veggie chili and vegan cheese mmm

I forgot to take a picture of the food I made the day after - but it was a tofu stir fry with rice mmmmm

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Pink Floyd
Tom petty
Pat benetar
Gretchen Wilson
Beatles
Emerson
Smoking
Drinking
Silverstone
Movie
...almost everything
Will just float on by

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Foooood!

Mmmm

The end now, off to furniture

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Foooood!

Mmmm

The end now, off to furniture

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My apt is ugly-ish :-( . Fix it.

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What if I won't ever be happy. Another dog?another animal?

Idk what's going to happen

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Omg there's so much traffic right now. I suck.

Maybe when/if we take maggie to training camp (ha) she will stop biting, bathrooming, tearing shit up.

I'll be sad when she has to go- idk when we'll or I'll be ready. Maybe we have the wrong kind of dog, as cute as she is.

I'm writing this as traffic is making me late

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I'm starting to want to smoke again- I don't want to, but it's getting to that point.

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